Musings

This little publication is a collection of musings on one topic or another. They reflect my ongoing process of understanding and creating meaning out of my life. I don't expect everyone to agree with me, in fact eventually I might not agree with myself as I change perspective with time. These are simply my own deeply held beliefs and convictions for now. I am not a part of any religion or group. I have chosen to expose myself here to the public because it is my hope that what I have to say will be of value to someone.

Much Love,
Katherine

Meaning
A Belief for This Era
Pain and Compassion
A Wish
For Ourselves
Now and a Dream
My Beliefs
Fear and Judgement
Absolutes
My Flakier Beliefs
Who's Quaint?
Beyond Fear
A Good Cause
Your Value
A Sacred Key to Life
A New Religion

Meaning

I believe life is its own meaning and that we must choose to create meaning for our own individual lives.

A Belief for This Era

Belief in religion has not provided us with the answers.
Nor has a belief in scientists and doctors.
Nor even gurus, shamans or spiritualists.
It is time we take a step toward believing in ourselves first.
It is time to understand that the responsibility lays with us to create the sort of life we want.

Pain and Compassion

Your pain is your pain. Everyone feels pain and to each person their pain is significant. A man is dying of thirst as he tries to escape a burning desert and a young woman feels afraid that she will never know the love of a young man. The man makes it out of the desert, the girl dies by suicide. Whose pain was the greater? All of us should cultivate compassion for all people's pain. No one's pain is more or less important than another's. Some people's needs may be more immediate, but we all deserve love and support.

A Wish

I wish to live in anticipation, not just hope.
I wish to face challenges, not struggle.
I desire a life of love, joy, wonder and fulfillment.
I ask the strength to give myself these things.

For Ourselves

I want to be liked by all the people that I meet. I even want to like all the people that I meet. It's compulsive, addictive, and I don't know of anyone who isn't hooked by these desires. Culturally we agree on a set of beliefs and behaviours that if we pretend to accept them, become a ground of commonality where we can meet for companionship. But this "norm" does not speak of who we really are and serves only to separate us further. Therefore we huddle together more closely in complete loneliness

What would happen if we let go of pretending to be like everyone else? What if we allowed our ground of commonality simply to be that we are all feeling, thinking human beings? We would have to like one another for ourselves. We would have to open our minds and our hearts. We would have to learn the nature of unconditional love.

My fear of losing love keeps me from being completely free and yet I am willing to make a start at giving myself these things.

Now and a Dream

Respect, honour and cherish the moment as it is. Hold onto and delight in your dreams, however, keep from using them as a measuring stick for now. If you worry about how things ought to be or how they aren't as you wish them to be, you can make yourself endlessly miserable. Now and your dreams need not be mutually exclusive. Use them both to enhance your joy.

My Beliefs

I believe as the central consciousness and interpreter of my experience that I create my reality. As such I am responsible for what happens within my life and how I then allow these happenings to affect me. Blaming myself or others for painful experiences does not serve to relieve or release the pain. Self examination, letting go of judgement and learning compassion does.

All human experience and all human action is valid. It's just that some actions and states of being seem to work more for our benefit than others.

If I want something, then I believe in being willing to give it to myself rather than waiting for someone else to give it to me. If I want the world to be a certain way, then again I believe in doing what I can to give it to myself where I am. I believe that if everyone took the responsibility to give themselves the world that they want, then the world would indeed change for the better.

I believe in living a life of choice, in fact I choose to live a life of choice.

As human we have all characteristics and all aspects of humanity within us to potentially be expressed. This includes fear, murderousness, cruelty, etc. Compassion begins with acknowledging this and loving yourself anyway. In no other way can we put these things into alignment and transcend them through wholeness. Denial won't do it, repression won't do it...only pure love.

Unconditional love for all of myself is the beginning of learning unconditional love for everyone and everything around me. Unconditional love is the only thing that can bring serenity and bliss into a life.

I can only ever know what seems to work best for me and yet with sharing my experience it is my belief certain other's paths might be made a little easier.

Fear and Judgement

Judgement is formed to modify your behaviour so that people are unlikely to withdraw their love from you. And yet in forming this judgement, you withdraw love from yourself. Every time you find yourself in judgement, it is time to love the fear of loss-of-love from being however you are. It is to acknowledge the fear and validate yourself. You are always loved and always loveable and the best way to prove this to yourself is to give it to yourself. We have chosen to participate in a system of judgement in this reality for the experience of it and for the experience of transcending it--all of which is valid human being.

Absolutes

I am not a very good environmentalist. I do all I can to reduce, reuse and recycle. And yet, when I look out over this city at night and see the ocean of sparkling lights, I am awed by its beauty and feel within that there is nothing I want done to change it.

With my family it is the same. We agree on very little and disagree on quite alot. And yet, I miss them terrribly throughout the year and wonder what they are up to. When I am with them, very little can be said, but I wouldn't have them any other way. The feelings of love transcend all those differences. The ideologies, beliefs and prejudices just aren't important in the face of human warmth.

If I were to say that one way is absolutely right and another absolutely wrong (and at times in the past I have), I would miss whole realms of love and beauty. I am not willing to give up such realms. The more expansive and encompassing my life is, the greater the joy that I receive from it.

My Flakier Beliefs

I believe that human being is more than just this single life. I believe that each one of us is an intimate expression of a larger spirit whose existence is infinite, whose creative powers are infinite. I do not believe it is a matter of our soul leaping from one body to another like a bird being moved from cage to cage, forever separate from the cage and yet entrapped by it. Each one of us as our larger selves is the divine essence of many lives and that larger self completely suffuses its physical expressions. Re-incarnation is just a description of our experience as human through time. Our larger self transcends time.

I do not believe in karma or any system of cosmic punishment and reward. I believe we are here for learning and experience. All learning and all experience is valid. I believe we are here as co-creators with our souls to create lives of intense beauty and to recognise that beauty. I believe we are here to experience and express the multi-faceted nature of love.

I believe life comes from life, therefore all things within this universe are living. Our earth truly is a self aware being of great divinity as is the universe. We are a part of our planet, we are part of our universe. We are part of all that is and all that is is a part of us. Love and life are synonymous. And there is nothing about us that wasn't created out of love. Ultimately, our great soul is the universe itself who participates in our experience.

Who's Quaint?

Many times when we see other cultures different from our own we maintain our reality tunnel by seeing the culture as quaint and primitive. "Look at that people and their multiple wives--how interesting, but we all know monogamy is superior." The problem is that we don't know that any of our cultural behaviours are superior, we simply presume they are in order to avoid cognitive dissonance and to reassert the dominant structure of our society where we feel safe because we know the rules. But what would happen if we genuinely embraced allowing people to collect and recollect themselves in any way they choose with an understanding that love can come in many forms? I believe it would make it easier for everyone to maintain both love and freedom in all of their relationships.

Beyond Fear

If it's not the devil, its' the Russians we hate and fear; if it's not the Russians then it's the international banking conspiracy or the blacks or the government or the homosexuals or the intellectuals or the computer. Where does it end?

As long as we continue to act out of fear and hatred--even if it is hatred of Japanese whale fishing vessels, the world is not going to become a better place to live. Some of us simply must step out in love and compassion. Some of us must shake off the shackles of self-imposed victimhood and start giving ourselves the world that we want. We cannot wait for the permission and approval of those bodies we so often hate. No one is going to give it to us. We must joyfully give it to ourselves. If we set ourselves against the powers that be, of course they will react to us as the enemy. But if we can find within ourselves compassion and unconditional love whereby we can accept these powers as valid, dropping judgement, then we will be building a new world for everyone; everyone is potentially an ally.

Where does a new world begin? It begins with everyone taking responsibility for their actions. It begins with everyone coming into self awareness. It begins with people choosing freedom over control and love over fear.

I Believe we always have a choice.

A Good Cause

I really enjoy participating in certain movements such as the peace, equal rights and environmental movements. They are forces for change. Though nothing must change, creative will nevertheless moves us all through the process of evolution. I have made my choice to be involved with these groups because I believe the changes they are working toward will make it easier for everyone to live happy lives. Yet, each individual is responsible for their own happiness. Therefore, the bottom line for my doing anything is do I derive joy from it? Am I having fun? If a cause isn't fun, it is taking itself too seriously and is likely to sink under its own weightiness. People are more important than causes. A cause is not outside the people who support it, it is the people who support it.

Your Value

You are valuable just as you are. You are in the perfection of your beingness right now. It is all right and valid to ask for help in changing things, to discover that you do have choice. Yet, I would suggest that you be wary of those who insist that you must change, that you must strive, in the way that they prescribe, to be a perfected being. You are as you need to be in this very moment. Look, rather, for support from those who accept you in your wholeness now and will help you do the same for yourself. It is only in honouring yourself that you will be able to honour life.

A Sacred Key to Life

Embrace the mystery of life.
Allow the uncertainty.
Surrender to the sweet support of universal love;
a love you do hold within yourself.

A New Religion

My religion is tea. Simply pour hot water over dry leaves and you go to heaven, or achieve nirvana depending on the time of day.


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Copyright (c) 28 July 1994, 2 August 1994 Katherine Phelps <muse@glasswings.com.au>.